Good afternoon, look, I'll say all ts fastly, after thinking for a while, again, I still think I'm right about most of the things I said on my other post, so this is not a apologize.

I deserve more, because some people made me know how good I was at drawing, I appreciate that. So, I'll keep drawing.

Even if I don't get recognition at all, or I barely get support, I'll keep going I guess, even if I'm still becoming a worse person.

I prolly have more to say, but I just wanted to say that.

I'm fucking tired of all the drawing stuff, I tried my whole miserable life, but it looks like it doesn't matter what I do, I'll never achieve anything important, and I genuinely can't get why I'm such a mf failure, my content is amazing, I should have a lot of opportunities because of that, but no. I've seen a lot of ugly ass drawings in every social media I've been, where I failed as usual. I know, I sound horrible while saying this, I haven't ever thought about becoming such a jerk.

I started drawing when I was a little kid, and no, I wasn't as talented, I actually started drawing properly a few years ago, and all my effort should mean something.

This is pretty childish, yes, but I don't want some dumbass prize or something, I want popularity, it has always meant everything to me. Instead of that, I became sick on the head, always bothered, a hater, and I'm still onto that black woman I've drawn so much.

I hate my life almost completely already, now I have nothing without what I wanted to reach for so much time, what sadly was a waste of time, and I couldn't be more raged about it.

I'm eighteen years old since last month already, but I'm still acting like a teenager. I have a cousin out there who has exactly everything what I wanted, she has money, fame, lots of friends, a couple. I should be proud of her, but until today I hate her, I don't think there's anyone out there who I hate more than I hate her.

She's not even barely good at anything, she's fucking selling shoes on some broke store. And then me, I'm breaking my ass on a construction every day, and she's earning more than me? I'm the one who is making THEIR houses, I'm about to live on the streets at this point.

Despite of everything I said, I hope she doesn't ever read this, no one on my family, because they still think I'm the little nice kid I was a lot of time ago.

Those would be all my problems, but of course, there's always more.

I'm alone, I'm completely alone, my best friends, they're living hundreds of miles away, or even in other parts of the continent. But I don't even gaf anymore, I want a couple, I want someone so much, it's horrible not to have a special person for you, I haven't ever actually kissed someone, I don't care if it's good or not, I just want it too. Oh, and what does this has to do with everything I said? Simple... Look, I love all of my work, but usually when I find someone and I show them my drawings, they seem disgusted with the person I am, and I just keep acting like I don't notice about it. Like, fucking bitch, at least I have a talent to presume unlike you and stuff...

But for God, of course they have more followers than me, and yes, yes, yes, it's all what matters for me now.

I tried everything, and no one actually interacts with anything I make but a few people, and sadly I'm not grateful enough about it, I'll always want more, and I'm sorry about that. But I deserve more, I have always deserved more, but I'll never have more, because I can just guess I'm cursed. I don't like drawing anymore, and even if it was the only thing I was good at, I only keep doing it to see the results, and I'm not happy anymore with them. So I just won't do what was fundamental for me my whole life, instead I'll just keep hating all of those people who have what I wanted, directly or indirectly. I know I'm the bad guy, but if you have nothing good to say then go away, I don't need anything that is not support.

I hate all of this, I just hate, I hate all.

There were always people to me, I won't mention those users, mostly because it'd be embarrassing to be in this stupid post, but I guess they know that I'm referring to them. So yeh, thanks if they're still reading this if they're not completely disgusted and all that...

Goodbye, emphasizing the word "good".

So, my latest post had a lot of views, votes and stuff, and it honestly made my day after such a exhausting week.

Anyways, thanks a lot, I've never been this """popular""" before, I'll keep posting like I always did... A few times per year. And yeah, that's all, thank you, losers.

I don't even know what to say, I just noticed I never said like anything here and stuff.

Anyway, prolly no one is seeing this, so, if someone does, I'd like to know what could I do about my drawings and stuff, you can ask for a drawing of any character (meanwhile it's not like too complex), yeah, stuff like that. Or maybe if I should open commissions or something like that, even if I'd accept to do them anytime tho... I can also draw NSFW if you want, the only thing you have to do is comment a suggestion and I'll consider it.

Also, there's a cool picture porque soy como super genial y así.